06 January 2010
Last night I executed my plan that I set out here a week ago. I watched the University of Iowa football team play in the Orange Bowl in Miami. The little gal at Manolo's put it on the big screen for me. Everyone else in attendance was nicely neutral.
It was an object lesson. Again, my only objective going in was to prevent the Hawkeyes from embarrassing and humiliating themselves through the force of my own will. At the outset I really did not care whether they won or lost. I simply wanted them to play well, and I was concentrating on that. My head was in the right place in other words.
Then, much to my surprise, they jumped out to a quick 14-0 lead. They were playing very well. That is precisely when I started to backslide into my old counterproductive mind set. Suddenly, I was not satisfied with the fact that they were playing well. Suddenly, I wanted them to win. And as soon as I started wanting them to win, all hell broke loose. In the blink of an eye, it seemed, the score was 17-14 and the game was very close.
Thank goodness I realized what had happened in my head before it was too late, and I was able to readjust my frame of mind at the beginning of the fourth quarter. The Hawkeyes won.
Now there is a pretty example of how a solipsist partakes of spectator sports. He actually believes that he can affect the outcome of an athletic contest with his own mind. And that is precisely why he must be very careful about how often he partakes of this. It is more seductive for him than heroin after the first pop.
I shall now leave spectator sports alone until the beginning of the World Cup in South Africa. . .
On second thought I might take in one or two basketball games this winter. Just to keep my hand in while I await the World Cup. I do not see what harm that could do.